Venting

OKay, so i'm royally hacked today, so allow me to vent for a moment here!

I got a ticket today because I had no license plate and no seatbelt. the seatbelt is inexcusable, but i don't have a license plate because I haven't been able to go back to camden to have my car assessed, and i couldn't call in because I wasn't in the system. I had a job and band practice every friday night and wasn't able to go back to take care of business, so i finally took a monday morning off from classes and went to take care of business. I did it when I could as soon as I could.......then, my sister has the guts to tell me "shoulda taken care of your tags instead of getting a new phone".......and how many new phones has she gotten unnecessarily in the past year?? My old phone was glitchy and a friend of ours needed a new one, so I passed it on to her....so she wants to complain...

and on the subject of her, she posted a blog on yahoo 360 talking about how something had happened to her and that "my sister is the only one who cares, the only house I can run to" I'm not the sister she's talking about here.....I'm supposedly her "best girl" "best friend" but apparently I dont' hold that place anymore. I feel betrayed and abandoned right now, but i'm sure i'll be over it soon, as usual. I'm so sick of taking the backseat when I hold her first constantly, i put off plans with other friends and with family to hang out with her cause she wants to hang out, and i constantly get put in the backseat. I'm TIRED OF IT!

so yeah....i'm in need of prayer.....thank God i'm going to church tonight...I need Jesus right now.

What You Don't See

I've learned in this past week exactly how much people watch me. Not just the fact that i'm freakishly tall, but the fact that i'm Apostolic and different from everything they know. I had somebody post in my homesty box this past week "I love how you're always smilin. I'm a backslid Penny and seeing you reminds me of better days" left by an anonymus male. Today, in band, one of the flute players randomly walked up for me and said "I need you to pray for my aunt, she's....*leaving out details*...and they said you're the most spiritual person in the band so will you please pray for her?" People watch...even when you don't realize it and think nobody is looking. It's important to stay prayed up, i'm finding out. Be instant in season and out of season....cause you never know when you'll be called upon to witness or pray, or simply be yourself and be the only Bible some people read. My smile has always been one of the most important things about me....It's what i'm known for (besides the skirt and craziness). Even since I got the Holy Ghost three and a half years ago, i've prayed for joy to show through me and to flow through me. Before Jesus, I was a miserable and sad person. My smiles were fake, and my laughter was forced. Now I know Jesus, and life is joyous for me and i make sure everyone knows it, whether or not I try. People watch...always, so don't let your guard down and always walk in the way of Holiness....you might be somebody's saving grace

Praises!

okay, so i'm going to take this brief opportunity to post yet again! I'm waiting for time to leave for my first class, and I feel inspired!

So how truly awesome is Jesus? Seriously, how amazing is He? COMPLETLEY AND TOTALLY AMAZINGLY AWESOME!! I think it's incredible that He's providing so much for me left and right. Mom says i'm spoiled! :) Think about it....i'm getting paid to go to college......over two thousand dollars a year IN MY POCKET for going to classes and playing in the band. the Lord is incredible!! Most around me are stressing about the loans they have to take out to pay for their schooling, but thanks to Jesus, i'm all set! When I was trying to find the college that was in the Lord's will for me, i fleeced "Lord, wherever you want me to go, let me be completley paid for" and i'll be the first to tell you that He answers prayers! :D

Sadly, Ten AM has rolled around now so i'm gonna have to go to class. (O yeah...world lit.....how awesome is it to wake up in the morning and go study God's Word in class for credit?? We're in the book of Job and I LOVE IT!!)

God Bless in Jesus' name!