My Brain

:) good morning world!! it is 4:40 AM and I am at work.

I've got a ton of stuff on my mind, so allow me to relieve some of this pressure before my brain explodes!!

I went and saw Teresa last week. For those of you who haven't ever heard me talk about "mudda 'resa" she was a lady I went to church with in bearden. she started coming to church about the same time I did, but she was actually STARTING church when I moved to bearden. She graduated with my oldest uncle, and is in her fifties, but she's an awesome and nifty lady. I've always had a special place in my heart for Mudda Resa, and she was my partner in crime many a time on trips to other churches for fellowship. She hasn't been back to the church since the incident....nobody could get in touch with her...she won't return calls or emails, so i boldened myself and drove out to her house last week to deliver a wedding invitation to her personally......
She's so different. :( I almost cried when i saw her...she was so worried about her hair when we were in church together, and i was always coming down to fix her hair and we'd always talk about ways to style it and how to care for it (girly stuff, I know)....and she'd cut it off...i know for most reading this, that a woman with short hair is no big deal, but for me it is.

1 Corinthians 11:4-6 and 15.
4Every man praying or prophesying, having his head covered, dishonoureth his head.

5But every woman that prayeth or prophesieth with her head uncovered dishonoureth her head: for that is even all one as if she were shaven.

6For if the woman be not covered, let her also be shorn: but if it be a shame for a woman to be shorn or shaven, let her be covered.


15But if a woman have long hair, it is a glory to her: for her hair is given her for a covering.


Our hair is our glory, and our covering...i knew that meant a lot to her..but she'd gotten it cut way down and it hurt to see her like that. However, this wasn't her only change. She had such a sweet personality, and was so ready to help and offer a helping hand with anything..as I sat and talked with her...she was almost mean...not that she was meaning to be, i know she wasn't trying to..but she said some pretty harsh things to me along the lines of my upcoming wedding and in just the way we chatted about people we knew...I left her home fighting tears...It recalled one of Jesus' parables to my mind

Matthew 12: 43-35

43When the unclean spirit is gone out of a man, he walketh through dry places, seeking rest, and findeth none.

44Then he saith, I will return into my house from whence I came out; and when he is come, he findeth it empty, swept, and garnished.

45Then goeth he, and taketh with himself seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter in and dwell there: and the last state of that man is worse than the first. Even so shall it be also unto this wicked generation.


Its amazing how much God can change a person when they're constantly with Him...and then to turn back around, whether intentionally or not..there are dire consequences...and it saddens and scares me....