Tired of Thinking

The difference between toeing the line and crossing it.....the fine gray line in the fog dividing our lives......the line that could be crossed in an instant.
I once had my heart. I shared it with you.....I loved you with everything in it that I could.....then I had to tear my heart away from you because it wasn't supposed to be yours thas time...part of it stayed with you, and I held on to the broken shards for dear life....convinced that I could function with only part of me........then came another who promised to make it whole again....so i gave him control of what was left of me......what was left he all but destroyed in the mire and left for me to find again.....so i searched for every bit of eight months for the shattered fragments of the girl I once was....and finally convinced myself that these were all the pieces I had left. now i've found me again..and consequently....You have re-entered my life...bringing the rest of my heart...and those pieces of mine.....you shattered once more, but painlessly.....and used what you had of me and what else I had.....and re-made my heart and offered it back to me......i wanted you to keep it, it's yours....and it has always been so, despite my stubborn insistances of otherwise.
We destroyed what we had last time......and that past tried to arise once more to rear its ugly head, but we defeated it....won this battle....with the promise that this battle will never be fought again. I confide all of me with you.....everything that God allows me to give. I love you more than more than mostest of most than chicken loves waffles with mozerella sticks and dr pepper, more than juliet loved Romeo.......I just want you. I could care less about a ceremony...proper ettiquite....the white dress........the flowers......i'd give it all up if I knew it'd keep me from you. Help me to focus with you......so our eyes remain on just one thing........My Saviour, My God, My Jesus. you took the pieces of me and made them whole again, only because of the Lord.......I am yours...all He will allow, its yours. Take all of me as you give all of you............i want this.....i love you